my friends here didn't know her, and often in a community like this we don't end up talking about the other people in our lives. but i do count some of the people here as my friends and i wanted to share this with them.
i lost my mother very suddenly this week. i had a ticket booked to see her on 1st june, and she died early on the 28th. i missed her by a few days. we had both been looking forward to time together so much. it was very, very unexpected.
losing her was the biggest fear of my life - i don't think anything can rattle me after this, because what could possibly be worse than this? she was one of those rare people in the world who is so warm and peaceful to interact with, even briefly. a few years ago I began to make a conscious effort to be extra attentive to her, to make time for her, listen to her, call her often and check in when i was far away, and to tell her many times how wonderful she was, how much i loved her, and most of all, to just enjoy her company.
today, i am SO thankful for that small decision which resulted in so many many wonderful memories. we had no idea - zero - that she would be gone like this. we also could never bear to think of losing someone as precious and lovely as her. but this is a fact of life that people die - the people we love the most die.
i suppose this is a bit of a PSA to make time for the important people while they are around.